Starting again.....

Assalamu Alaykum dear brothers and sisters...

Last few days I was thinking....asking myself how can I start again? Start for being a good slave of Allah, a wife to my husband a mother to my kids a daughter to my parents a sister to my siblings.Then I remember all the bad things that I done before..May Allah forgive me and guide me.Ameen

To my husband... 

I know I hurt him a lot in many ways he love me too much I felt that, even sometimes he neglect to show me how much he loves me and there are a times I felt that my  relationship to him is  getting colder in some ways love, religion, belief  but Allah sent many ways how this relationship work again for good.He sent many trials on my way and this trials make me more stronger as human, as a person  and because of this I become more closer to my family to Him. Allah never sent us hardship that we cant handle He knows everything and what good for us so if trials came to our way say..Alhamdulillah Allah knows best..

"It is He Who has created you from a single person (Adam), and (then) He has created form him his wife (Eve), in order that he might enjoy the pleasure of living with her…" (Al-A’raf 7:189) 

"Among the Muslims, the most perfect as regards his faith is the one whose character is most excellent, and the best among you are those who treat their wives well." (At-Tirmidhi)

"Woman has been created from a rib and in no way will be straight for you; so if you enjoy her you will do so while crookedness remains in her; but if you try to straighten her you will break her; breaking her being divorcing her." (Sahih Muslim)

To my kids....

There was a time I know can fulfilled my duty as they mother. May Allah forgive me but I'm trying my best do to my responsibility to them to take care of them to do my household at the same time work. I believe one day Allah will give me a chance to show to them the love and care that they need as a Muslim mother I pray that one day  Allah use me to show to them the right path and that is Islam.

O you who believe! Save yourselves and your families from a Fire whose fuel is Men and Stones . .  (Qur’an 66:6) 

To my parents, brothers and sister...

As a daughter for me I know I did my duty I'll try my very best to be a good child and sister to them I know all of this is not enough but I just want to say as long as live I will continue my duty to them to give love comfort shelter Insha Allah ..May Allah help me and guide me to the right way...Ameen

"We have enjoined on man and woman (to be good) to his/her parents; show gratitude to Me and to thy parents; to Me is (thy final) Goal. If they (parents) strive to make thee join in worship with Me things of which thou hast no knowledge, obey them not; yet bear them company in this life with justice (and consideration) and follow the way of those who turn to Me (in love)" (31:14-15).

A man came to the Prophet and said, ‘O Messenger of God! Who among the people is the most worthy of my good companionship? The Prophet said: Your mother. The man said, ‘Then who?' The Prophet said: Then your mother. The man further asked, ‘Then who?' The Prophet said: Then your mother. The man asked again, ‘Then who?' The Prophet said: Then your father. (Bukhari, Muslim). 

To my Lord May creator the Only God..ALLAH..

I don't know how can I start I know I'm not a good slave of you, I disobey you always, I always think  all the bad deeds that I done before and till now I'm still doing but still your here beside me You giving me a chance to saw the right path on the day that I'm in the darkness, I'm so blessed You love me My LORD  Allah despite of everything You sent help when I need it, you forgave in my sins, You make me strong if You felt I'm giving up, You sent person when You knew I'm in trouble..I feel ashamed on you.All the love that You give to me.. but still I'm here disobeying You.....Ya Allah I'm here begging on You, asking your forgiveness.Ya ALLAH make me strong show me the right way again teach me to start to be a good wife, a good mother, a good daughter and sister and most of all to be a good slave, a good Muslim It's all I want YOU....here in my heart in my soul in my mind here and here after...Ameen...

And O my people! Ask forgiveness of your Lord and then repent to Him, He will send you (from the sky) abundant rain, and add strength to your strength, so do not turn away as Mujrimoon (criminals, disbelievers in the Oneness of Allah) [Hood 11:52] 

 
Hold to forgiveness, command what is right, and turn away from the ignorant. [ Al-'Araf 7: 199]

And the men and the women who remember Allaah much with their hearts and tongues. Allaah has prepared for them forgiveness and a great reward (i.e. Paradise) [al'Ahzaab 33:35]

 MAY ALLAH FORGIVE US AND BLESS ON US AND GUIDE US ALL TO THE RIGHT WAY..AMEEN

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Sahih Muslim...

THE STORY OF THE THREE PERSONS OF THE CAVE AND THEIR MAKING GOOD DEEDS OF THEIRS AS THE MEANS OF RIDDANCE...

'Abdullah b. 'Umar reported that Allah's Messenger (may peace be upon him) said:

Three persons set out on a journey. They were overtaken by rain and they had to find protection in a mountain cave where at its mouth there fell a rock of that mountain and thus blocked them altogether. One of them said to the others: Look to your good deeds that you performed for the sake of Allah and then supplicate Allah, the Exalted, that He might rescue you (from this trouble). One of them said: 0 Allah, I had my parents who were old and my wife and my small children also. I tended the flock and when I came back to them in the evening, I milked them (the sheep, goats, cows, etc.) and first served that milk to my parents. One day I was obliged to go out to a distant place in search of fodder and I could not come back before evening and found them (the parents) asleep. I milked the animals as I used to milk and brought milk to them and stood by their heads avoiding to disturb them from sleep and I did not deem it advisable to serve milk to my children before serving them. My children wept near my feet. I remained there in that very state and my parents too until it was morning. And (0 Allah) if Thou art aware that I did this in order to seek Thine pleasure, grant us riddance from this trouble. (The rock slipped a bit) that they could see the sky. The second one said: 0 Allah, I had a female cousin whom I loved more than the men love the women. I wanted to have sexual intercourse with her; she refused but on the condition of getting one hundred dinirs. It was with very great difficulty that I could collect one hundred dinirs and then paid them to her and when I was going to have a sexual intercourse with her, that she said: Servant of Allah, fear Allah and do not break the seal (of chastity) but by lawful means. I got up. 0 Allah, if Thou art aware that I did this in order to seek Thine pleasure, rid us from this trouble. The situation was somewhat eased for them. The third one said : Allah, I employed a workman for a measure of rice. After he had finished his work I gave him his dues (in the form of) a measure of rice, but he did not accept them. I used these rice as seeds ,and that gave a bumper crop and I became rich enough to have cows and flocks (in my possession). He came to me and said: Fear Allah, and commit no crueltv upon me in regard to my dues. I said to him : Takeaway this flock of cows and sheep. He said: Fear Allah and do not make a fun of me. I said: I am not making a fun of you. You take the cows and the flocks. So he took them. 0 Allah, if Thou art aware that I did it for Thine pleasure, case the situation for us. And Allah relieved them from the rest of the trouble.Sahih Muslim Book 36, no.6007

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PEARL IN THE MUD...

A  Mud ...  soft mud that love

To make others happy

Thinking she will find friends..

When they saw this mud and how soft is it.

They will love that and hurt..

Nobody knows how precious this Mud is......
This mud need the hand that can protect her...

One day this mud saw that hand she feel

protected with His guidance, His love..

Now the soft mud become stronger..

Stronger to face all the trials..

They never knew inside this soft mud is a Pearl..

A pearl willing to shine for that hand... 

And that hand is ALLAH...